photo purchase from istock in 2005
I was looking through old photos, trying to find an image to match the way I feel now that I am virtually pain free compared to how I have been the past several months. This picture I purchased from istock photo for an old blog stood out to me. Unfortunately I do not have the photographer’s name.
I cannot begin to recall the amount of times I laid in bed this past summer shivering with pain and a low grade fever begging God for relief. In moments of sheer honesty I told Him that I could not live in this much pain with no answers for the rest of my life.
Each day I got up and tried to breathe the best I could, my ribs, spine and neck all so inflamed and rigid with pain of unknown etiology.
I took narcotic pain medication and nausea medication, a steroid taper. I took NSAIDS which I am not supposed to take given my history of Crohn’s as they can cause GI bleeding. I have taken an Epsom salt bath almost every day.
Nothing really helped
5 days ago I started using hemp derived CBD oil, the legal kind. This does not have psychoactive effects. Over the past days, my pain level has steadily decreased. I am off all other pain medications.
My pain level which was originally a 7-9 is down to a 2-3
You know how it is when things are super confusing and we can get overwhelmed and just not do them? It is normal, in fact some companies use this as a strategy to alter our decision making: overwhelm us with confusing information.
CBD oil has been this confusing for me over the past few years. I had heard about it for pain relief and as a way to help with chronic illness. I also heard about cannabis oil. In fact, cannabis oil is legal in my state for 2 of my diagnoses (crohn’s and cancer) but my doctors won’t discuss it as a treatment option for me. These are doctors who have treated me for years; I know they genuinely care about me. There is a bond that forms when you bring a person and their family through gruesome moments and utter distress. These doctors have done that for me. We have quality relationships. I personally think that they are in a difficult position with constraints that are beyond their control about what is ok to discuss with their patients when it comes to CBD and cannabis oil.
Most of my life I have been a rule-follower. I grew up in a very loving home. Part of the way my family and community expressed love was to shelter us while we were young. Looking back, my friends and I had an idyllic youth and drugs were definitely not on my radar.
Even now, at my age of 45, there will always be a part of me that is compliant to way I was raised. So for me to get comfortable talking about CBD and cannabis oil, I had to go against my upbringing. I also had to go against what my doctors are telling me. None of this has been easy. But I desperately want to get better. I want to get off of some of the medications I take.
I decided to research CBD oil and cannabis oil in order to learn about this medical option that is labeled as “wrong” by people are making decisions, but “right” by people who are fighting for their health.
The truth is that I am being given opiates for pain. I am grateful that we have that type of relief for times of horrific pain which I have experienced with crohn’s, leukemia, even migraines.
However, this recent pain and inflammation that is due to Lyme disease or something else…I don’t want to just exist on opiates that alter my mind, put me to sleep and really don’t even take the pain away. I decided to try Hemp CBD Oil, which is legal for anyone, anywhere.
The pain diminished within 24 hours. I was off pain medication in 2 days. As I wrote at the beginning of this post I have gone from a pain level 7-9 to a 2-3. The CBD oil does not make me high, not at all.
My life is totally different today than it was just a week ago all because I found a way to significantly reduce pain and get off narcotics.
I had forgotten how light life feels to not be in horrible pain. I feel like someone gave me a luxurious gift when the truth is, the only thing that happened is that I am out of horrific pain. That is how devastating pain can be, it can make everything weighty and it can crush your ability to put one foot in front of the other.
There are a lot of uses for CBD oil, some include:
- Neuroprotective (research is being done on the role of CBD oil in alzheimer’s, Multiple Sclerosis, Stroke, Parkinson’s disease)
- Pain (Multiple Sclerosis, Arthritis, Lyme Disease, Cancer, Crohn’s Disease, Spinal Cord Injuries, Fibromyalgia, Muscle Pain, Chronic Pain….the list is much longer than this)
- Anti-seizure: this is a possible anti-epileptic option
- Anxiety relief, PTSD, Sleep…
For the first 29 years of my life I did not know what it was like to be in excruciating pain. I have always been a compassionate person but I can remember times when I thought people who talked about pain were embellishing it; I just did not understand because I had not lived it.
I think that history will look back on this space in time as cruel, that there is a stigma against something that can help people with chronic illness/pain. If I have been afraid of the stigma that is associated with CBD oil there must be others who are also living in pain, taking addictive opiates, who are afraid to try something different because it has been labeled with a bad stigma.
CBD oil does not work for everyone. And I am not giving medical advice. I am sharing my experience because I believe it matters and it may help some of you who are also living in pain. If you do look into CBD oil, you want to make sure to get a high quality brand. The brand I use is Elixinol.
I use the hemp oil drops. They also provide it in the following forms: CBD capsules, CBD balm, Repira Versital CBD tinctures for vaping, oral applicator pens, hemp oil liposomes. Elixinol offers CBD dog treats which we are going to try for our pup who struggles with anxiety.
Elixinol is non-GMO, vegan, free of harmful ingredients and pesticides.