“Even if happiness forgets you a little bit, never completely forget about it.”
It is early January and we are wrapping up a dazzling holiday season. For the first time in 4 years I was completely healthy; we were able to go to parties, dine out and even travel.
2014-2017 were almost unbearable. I was home more than 80% of the time fighting leukemia and then immunodeficiency.The days were long and family bolstered my heavy heart reminding me that better times were ahead.
During a time when it seemed that happiness had forgotten me in a much bigger, more agonizing way than ever before, my family refused to let me to forget happiness.
The silver lining of life’s hard times is that we learn so much through them. 2014-2017 were rife with lessons that I have yet to fully unpack.
One of the fundamental lessons the recent years taught me is the role of mindset in determining our life experience.
Going into 2014, I thought I understood mindset…
It seemed that years of hospitalizations and procedures for crohn’s disease and leukemia had taught me how to focus my thoughts, how to foster hope when circumstances looked bleak.
I never imagined that I would beat cancer and then be constrained to stay home for years because my immune system was deficient from chemotherapy. Outside of a miracle I will be on that chemotherapy for the rest of my life. To make the situation more dire, I am highly allergicto the only medical treatment available for this type of immunodeficiency.
I have felt completely hopeless and trapped.
Neurologists, psychologists and other specialists who study cognition estimate that between 75-95% of our thoughts are repetitive and that 80-90% of our thoughts are negative. These statistics include everyone; as in people who are out and about in society with all of its distractions. Being at home, feeling profoundly isolated, has demanded that I create systems to take my thoughts captive, to practice mindfulness so that I can move forward and heal instead of staying stuck in sadness.
In addition to developing mindfulness skills, I have become much more attuned to what my body is asking of me and honoring its requests.
I am aware that my body is at a turning point, I can sense that 2018 will be a year of change and that miracles are ahead for me.
I am equally aware that of the role I play in creating space for healing to take place. I am releasing some activities to immerse myself in actives that directly boost my immune system.
The biggest thing that I am letting go of is the Beautycounter business I had for the past 1-1/2 years. I am deeply honored that people believed in me enough to support my business. If you are one of those people, thank you from the bottom of my heart.
I recognize that it is time for me to direct the energy I was using to run that business toward boosting my immune system.
A handful of the actions I take to boost my immune system (some of these are already in practice and some are new)
- Cooking nutrient dense meals
- Take EnteraGam — a prescription medical food supplying me with Immunoglobulins (more in a future post)
- Writing daily
- Daily exercise
- Increase social opportunities in small groups or outside (less germ exposure)
- No screen time 1-2 hours before bed
- Daily positive podcasts
- Less time on Facebook because I am spending more time on Instagram(I limit the amount of time I spend on social media)
- Read more books and less mindless scrolling through social media or emails
- Currently going through Dr. Caroline Leaf’sSwitch On Your Brain: The Key to Peak Happiness, Thinking, and Health and will do other mindfulness exercises this year
I thought you might enjoy a quick glance at the pictures below. God has brought me through so much these past few years.
Thank you for the support you have given me these past 3 years. It has been intense and I am not sure I could have made it through without you.
I wish each of you a Happy and Healthy New Year