Yesterday I was at my parent’s house and I looked across the counter at this set of coasters that they have had for years. I have used the coasters for years. And I have (of course) read the words on them.
But it was different yesterday. I looked over and the word “Strength” jumped off the coaster in an almost audible way. So I took a picture of it and posted it to FB and Instagram (because that is what most of us do these days: we see something that touches us, take a pic and post it).
I just got the phone call that I have been somewhat expecting.
My Oncologist said that the labs came back and show molecular changes that are trending toward relapse or mutation.
He outlined our next step(s):
1. We will do more tests (bone marrow biopsy–have not had one in a while, plus other tests).
2. The medical team has already started working on my precert information for several different chemotherapy options because I will be changing therapies.
Everything should be happening within the next few weeks.
I thought that I was prepared for this news.
These labs are very sensitive and specific so they are catching the molecular changes early. It is not like 2006/7 when I was horrifically sick. It is just a tiny blip right now. So it’s OK and I will be OK.
However I am still doing that thing where I am shaking and crying very hard.
Physically and emotionally, I don’t feel good at all right now and the next couple of months will be challenging.
I have no doubt that it was God that drew my eyes to that coaster at my parent’s house yesterday.
I guess God was trying to prepare me for what is ahead. Please pray for strength.
Now…I am going to find a comfy pair of pj’s and sit in front of the fireplace. I am so grateful that my husband will build a warm and cozy fire for us. That he and our dog will hang out with me fireside tonight (even if a chic flick is involved…and I have a feeling a really sappy, tear jerking chic flick might be involved).